No, not because I am fashionable - but rather because, watch it or I will snap your head right off.
It is the hormones, or in my case, the lack thereof. I have just completed my first month of tamoxifen (the estrogen blocker that I will be taking for the next 5-7 years...that's right 5-7 years, Lord help us)! I think I mentioned previously, the tumor was estrogen/progesterone positive, so hormone therapy is the final step in my treatment plan.
Thankfully, so far there have been minimal side effects. As with any drug, there are risks; however, the benefits outweigh the risks. It is my responsibility to be on top of anything out of the ordinary, and report them to my doctor right away.
OK, back to my snappiness...It is a very slippery slope, I can be perfectly fine one minute and ready to go "postal" the next. I am working on trying to find the middle ground, and it not easy. I have found that getting some sort of exercise in each day definitely helps. When it all becomes too much, I give myself a time out, and try to take a couple of long deep breaths....or just cry my eyes out.
The other day, I needed a break and John was so sweet to take the kiddies to their sporting event commitments, so I could have an hour of "me" time. I was driving in the car, listening to the radio - and a song came on that I had never heard before. It was like God was was putting it on the radio for just me.... Here is the verse:
This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess, I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
I've gotta trust, you know exactly what your doing
Might not be just what I choose, but this is stuff you use....
I AM so thankful for the life I have been given, and all the "stuff" that he will use.
